You know how some little girls dream about their weddings, or even their bachelorette parties? Well I dreamt of my 21st birthday in Las Vegas, and it finally happened!
Partying in Vegas Without My Eating Disorder
I initially had planned on making this post just a Las Vegas recap and telling y’all about my fun trip while simultaneously bragging about my cousins amaaaazing makeup skills. But then I realized that I owe this post more. Because never in a million years did I ever think I could go on a Vegas getaway, drink tons of alcohol, eat so much junk, exercise none, and feel like the hottest one in the room. But I did it. And I want you to be able to as well.
First night, makeup done, dress on, and we’re getting those priceless Vegas pictures. (That’s my cousin btw!) Excited was an understatement. But then something happens that isn’t entirely foreign to me – I started feeling pretty self conscious next to my cousin. I know I weigh more than her, and I’m not posing just right, and so on and so forth.
I mean, my cousins are drop dead gorgeous. But here’s the thing, so am I. We’re different, but we’re all incredibly beautiful. So I nipped those thoughts in the bud, enjoyed our little photo shoot, and got right back to the birthday excitement! Before I knew it, we were running late to the first club (photo shoots take time!) and I was ready for some drinks and dancing.
Okay, okay so I may have started on the drinks part before we left. Hey! It was my 21st birthday after all. And I couldn’t let the champagne my dad got me go to waste…
The Morning After: Waking Up Without ED
Man those Vegas hangovers are no joke! I woke up around noon with a belly full of alcohol as well as popcorn I had munched on at the end of the night. Headaches and major bloating are an understatement. But instead of beating myself up for consuming X amount of calories, I pulled myself out of bed, went to brunch with my cousins, and ordered the most decadent thing on the menu: lobster & brie omelette with hash browns. I take birthday “treat yoself” very seriously.
The rest of the day was a bit painful. My belly hurt and the bloating was relentless, but I made an effort to consciously remind myself that the bloating is normal after drinking pretty heavily, and I have no reason to punish myself or restrict. If you are struggling with body image after a night out, or fun weekend I recommend you actively remind yourself that it’s just temporary. Bloating doesn’t last forever but memories do.
Before I knew it, it was time to get ready for night number 2! I wore a pretty, red velvet number and man was I feelin’ myself 😉 On this night we went to the club, Omnia, and ended up getting to be at the table behind the DJ booth! Hardwell was playing and we were literally so close to him. Overall, it was such an exciting trip and definitely one for the books. I feel grateful for recovery, because had I never taken that first step then I never would’ve allowed myself to let go for one hell of a weekend.
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