Do you remember that scene in Disney’s classic, Mary Poppins, when everyone jumps into the painting and BAM! All of a sudden they’ve entered a new, colorful, happy place full of life? That’s what’s going down today. Except you’re hopping into your computer screen and ending up..in my car. Because that’s where the single most revolutionary recovery moment occurs. And you’re not going to want to miss it.
You’re driving down the freeway and it’s about 9 PM. You just had a full day out with friends. No formal exercise was part of that day. No early morning gym call. No late night HIIT workout to squeeze in. But you’re not thinking about that. Not even close. You’re thinking about the song that’s playing and when your favorite artist is going to release that new album. Then you’re thinking about the commercial you saw on TV last night. You circle back to thoughts on the fun day being social and happy. Your mind is full as it’s ever been when you used to be sick, but something’s different. No, something’s missing. The food obsession and the numbers and the planning, it’s what’s gone. The day you never thought would arrive where your eating disorder seems to have disappeared from your mind completely, that day has arrived. It arrived on a night at 9 PM as you drive down the freeway. And it’s damn beautiful.
You start to feel butterflies in your stomach because the situation is hitting you. You don’t remember ever feeling so free. You do remember thinking your life would always be controlled by numbers and planning cheat meals and toggling between hating yourself for losing too much weight and then hating yourself for gaining it. But that’s all gone. Woooooosh it’s out the window scattered along the freeway because your biggest problem is no longer that a restaurant doesn’t offer nutrition facts; your biggest problem is that they are out of vanilla ice cream. Damn. So you settled for the chocolate. The empty cup is sitting in your cupholder and when you look at it, you don’t want to scream.
When you look at that empty ice cream cup you don’t see calories or begin visualizing your next cardio session. You see nothing. Just an empty cup. And it makes you want to cry because you thought an empty cup of ice cream, ice cream currently in your belly, you thought it would never be nothing again. You thought it would always be a war. But the white flag has been raised and you feel free. You wouldn’t even be giving it a second thought but now you are because you’ve arrived. This moment is important
This moment is when you know your strength is that of oceans and heart is that of a lion. This moment makes you feel like there will be no more relapses and bright skies are ahead. This moment is when you know recovery is worth it, it was all worth it, and you are no longer bound by the strings that held you tight. You busted out of them. Granted, you probably busted out of some old jeans too – you smile to yourself. Because it doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter anymore what size you wear or when you tend to be bloated. You’re free. And happy. And just spent the day being free and happy. And all you’re thinking about is when that next album is coming out. And that my friend, is the moment you don’t want to miss. It’s simple and boring and everything you’ve ever wanted back that your eating disorder stole. Keep fighting for it.
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