Much like many people (including myself) take issue with the need to define a “real” woman, I think there is equal fault in attaching stigma to a “real” recovery. In today’s WIAW I’ll be sharing my day of eats, per the usual, but I’ll also be encouraging you now more than ever to avoid comparison. WIAW should never be about comparison or judgement, but especially today when the aim is to avoid labeling any type of eating, exercising, or just being as a “real” recovery or in simpler terms, not recovery. I’m here to tell you that whatever your journey to recovery, to self love, may be: it’s real. Let’s get into why.
Lazy girl “overnight oats” AKA buckwheat + chia + cinnamon microwaved in water then let to sit for a few minutes to fluff and cool. Then mixed with yogurt, mashed banana, and topped with PB. Popped in the freezer for 20 minutes and then plopped into my school bag. Eaten an hour later before class. Yum.
What “Real” Recovery Looks Like
- eating 3,000+ calories a day
- not tracking your calories and following Intuitive Eating
- eating a whole pint of ice cream
- not eating a whole pint of ice cream
- choosing not to exercise to heal your mental health
- choosing to exercise to enhance your mental health
- inpatient treatment
- outpatient treatment
- no treatment
Lunch in class was a tupperware full of spinach + a chopped turkey burger + Hidden Valley ceesar Greek yogurt dressing + some un-pictured cherries and a few bites of a peanut butter perfect bar
I believe that real recovery can be achieved by any number of ways, but perhaps it’s best to start off with the realization that “real” recovery is
sort of really redundant. Your recovery is real just by choosing to commit to it. Last week my friend Amanda over at Real Life Recovery Diary wrote a brilliant post on why you simply must choose recovery every day. And that’s what makes it real friends. Celebrating the #recoverywins over a fear food you haven’t eaten in years, crying when last year’s shorts don’t fit, picking yourself up, throwing away the scale, finding the courage to talk to your family about your ED, skipping a meal but realizing you never want to do it again…it’s all part of your journey. Every bit is as real as the last and you should feel damn proud every step of the way.
This peanut butter Perfect bar was munched on from the hours of 2 – 4. I had part of it with my spinach salad in one class, and the rest in my last class of the day. Such a filling, delicious, and superfood packed snack.
Recovery is Kind of Like Falling in Love
The first time you fall in love, it’s tumultuous and reckless. It’s one big guessing game and when it’s over, you’re likely to feel a bit lost. My first stage of eating disorder recovery was a lot like this. The next time you fall in love, you have a bit more sense as you go through the motions and you’re a tad more confident than the time before. You’ll still make mistakes and pay the price for them, but there’s a certain comfort in knowing “hey I’m starting to get the hang of this”. Your next phase of recovery will feel more stable, more mature, and you may find yourself wondering where this person was all along. Flash forward to the last time you fall in love, the one. The one who you no longer fight with at the level that you did in the past, the one that no matter how bad things get – you’re always able to pull yourself out. The one you’re at peace with. Your final stages of recovery will be peaceful and close to perfect, and it’ll make you question all the types of recovery you attempted in the past. Don’t. You swore the love you felt for your first boyfriend or girlfriend on the school yard was real, and it was. It was real for you then and that’s all that matters. Your stages of recovery were all real as you experienced them, and the final end game doesn’t take that away. Your path is yours to follow, knowing each destination along the way is as real as the next.
Snack around 5 PM when I got home from school: two toasted corn tortillas + avocado + turkey
I challenge you today to reflect on the various stages of your recovery. Think about where it’s taken you, or rather, where you’ve taken it. Where do you want to go from here? What’s next in your future? What will your story look like?
Dinner with mom was beef machaca with scrambled eggs + rice and corn + gauc! Shared this huge plate with my mama but in reality ate like 90% of it haha. Ended the night with half of an unpictured chocolate chip cookie dough LARA bar
As you think about your recovery let me know in the comments:
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